While contrary to popular belief, I have not fallen off the edge of the earth. In fact, I believe I may have temporarily left said planet for crazier times… cause who can’t get enough crazy in her life already? This girl, right here.
I have been slightly hypomanic. That is to say mania type symptoms but definitely not manic (as in I am not thinking I am Mother Theresa or that I am on some quest sent from God to pure the world of all evil. Wouldn’t that be cool though?! I would have to say I would start off with getting rid of most of our government that refuse to get along and thus never gets anything accomplished, as well as the self-righteous idiots running for president. Dude! Get out of the dark ages people! We are a diverse country with lots of likes/dislikes and beliefs! We are entitled to those beliefs and no! Those beliefs do not have to coincide with yours and you have no say over what we, as women, do with our bodies!)
Okay, off my random rant now. So, on to my lack of posting. My sincere apologies. Here is the scoop. When I am hypomanic, I tend to try to do everything. And everything has to be done, RIGHT NOW. Kinda makes my anxiety go even more through the roof. Thing is, I can’t seem to complete half of what I try, or it takes a whole week of writing down my goals and continuing to go back to said list to figure out what it was I should have been doing, but was misdirected from. I have been trying to prepare for a JBF (Just Between Friends) sale in which I am selling some of the clothes Sunshine has grown out of, so as to make room for what she will need in the new future. (One being a kid potty, and no, I do not store the potty with the clothes she will be growing into). I have been trying to get the ever-loving mountain of laundry that accumulates everyday, done. However, it seems the biggest hurdle is folding said mountain and placing the boulders of clothes back in the damn drawers they came from. Not only am I thwarted by my 11 month old who unfolds everything I fold, but my husband and I can’t seem to get to putting the stuff away. Thus, the piles of clothes in our bedroom. Sigh.
What have I learned from this? Yes, its important to try to maintain some semblance of cleanliness in our house, but it’s not the priority right now. Keeping my daughter from climbing the book-case, stuffing power cords in her mouth, and playing with the outlet covers IS. So, while I don’t have the time to write so much right now, nor the time to do much around the house other than chase after my kid…. know that I very much wish to post and will do my best to write when I can. It may not be much, but it will be something… and that is the best I can do for now. I am satisfied with that for now.
So, all my best, dear readers…. and watch for that next post! You never know when it will be coming, and neither will I! hehe….
Don’t forget to giggle.